spoon full of sugar...

2011-10-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

He proposed.

I said yes.

Australian Visa Approved.

2010-07-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

:)

2010-02-03T17:46:00.001+08:00

Quote

Facebook Inbox
Brian Hew 22 January at 11:58
Hey sis.. I know is a bit late but just want to say thanks. That day CWPM when we all lay hands on each other i felt God try to heal me and restore some of the past hurts. Then God reminded me of all the people who stand by me when i was down and you were one of them. And i felt God told me that He is always proud of what u've done and will continue to enlarge u so much in 2010, and also something about good life partner also. So ya, like what Kysern say, Diana is just Awesome. Take care : )

poladroid with love

2010-02-03T16:48:00.001+08:00

hello 2010!

2010-01-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

Turkey

2009-12-14T13:14:00.001+08:00

23rd Nov - 1st Dec 2009.
Turkey.

Gorgeous!

declutter

2009-12-12T14:20:00.002+08:00

So it was time to spring clean and declutter.

I went into my room and just stared at it for a while. Geezz! How on earth did it end up like this? Looked like a hurricane just passed through here. I can barely find floor space to walk. It's quite shocking.

In all honestly, I didn't even know where to start but once I got it going, it turned out to be quite relaxing. I decided things that I haven't touched or used in the pass 6 months will have to go. I threw 7 bags of garbage away.

In the midst of the chaos - cleaning, throwing, organizing and sweating, I found many things that made me smile. Kite that a certain someone made me more than a decade ago, the first Christmas present that the rock star gave me before he was famous, cards and the many random diary pages.

I had a good past. I am looking forward to a greater future.

When everything was sorted, I felt liberated.

moved

2009-10-15T12:00:00.000+08:00

the sister moved out.

*sigh*

today...

2009-10-05T23:39:00.001+08:00

1. I got prophecied over lunch by Ps. Dave Connell.

2. For the first time in 14 years, I have black hair.

3. New Cell Group started!

mobile blog

2009-08-29T12:02:00.001+08:00

cool!

His Glory Appears

2009-08-13T10:14:00.004+08:00

You gave me hope

You made me whole

At the cross

You took my place

You showed me grace

At the cross where You died for me

And His glory appears like the light from the sun

Age to age He shines

Oh look to the skies hear the angels cry

Singing holy is the Lord...

I miss You, Daddy!

2009-08-05T13:13:00.002+08:00

Dear Daddy,

Somehow, I miss You today. Don't know where this came from, but I really miss You. As I look out at the window, watching at the rain fall, I think of You. Your goodness. Your mercy. Your greatness. How awesome is Your name.

I can't have enough of You. I know that You are with me. I will not fear. My hiding place. My safe refuge. My treasure. My Friend and King. Anointed One. You are most holy!

I will exalt You... everyday of my life.

Love,

Your daughter.

xoxo

CHC Staff

2009-07-29T11:00:00.000+08:00

Team Awesome!

the Sabo!

2009-07-17T12:44:00.003+08:00

The last day of my Medan. RJ sent this to me as my birthday present. Super sweet!

meltdown

2009-07-08T14:54:00.002+08:00

I had a meltdown.

Than I read THIS from Ps.Steve McKinney's blog.

Maybe I've been looking at the wrong direction, expecting a different package.

"the usuals"

2009-07-01T11:50:00.004+08:00

Everyone made time and came back from Aussie & Singapore to celebrate Choy Ling's 30th birthday. It was special. The big family reunites.

Happy 30th Birthday Choy Ling!

me likes....

2009-06-24T09:34:00.002+08:00

1-2-1-2-3-4

Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you

You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4

There’s only one thing
To do three words
For you (I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do (I love you) I love you

Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you

[1234 - Plain White T's]

............

2009-06-19T15:27:00.001+08:00

I feel... unworthy...

How can this be real?
How can this be true?
How can you be so sure?
How can you see what even I myself don't see?

How?

new toy

2009-06-13T10:11:00.004+08:00

The boss bought me a new laptop.

Looking sleek and sexy... HP Pavilion DV2. Super light. Super cool. Super sexy! I'm happy.

I bought myself an awesome crumpler to match the sexy toy.

Ahhh... *happyness*

pink eye

2009-06-03T13:40:00.003+08:00

I have allergy reaction towards W-O-R-K!

*teehee*

hoorah

2009-06-01T16:08:00.002+08:00

So I've been back from Medan for a month or so now.

Its surreal.

In many ways I don't feel like I'm fully back yet. Don't know. Just a weird feeling that I can hardly put words into. Sometimes its a struggle.

I don't talk about it because no one really understands so I don't try.

Today marks the beginning of June. Its like a new phase. Its like turning over a new leaf. It smells fresh.

I start work tomorrow. Work. I have not been working for 10 months now. Excited to get back into the game but seriously have no idea what to expect.

Everything is new and hopeful.

*hoorah* to new phase.... *hoorah* to new beginning.

life is exciting...

2009-05-12T14:17:00.002+08:00

I've got lots to look forward to.

[: :] Kareeann coming back!

[: :] Beijing with momsy, the sisters and momsy's friends. Meeting Wei Ren.

[: :] Perth & roadtrip to Albany with the Tans and Yin Har. Meeting Timo.

[: :] Camerons with Kysern, Yin Har, Wen, Wei Tieng & Thomas.

[: :] Starting work in City Harvest Church KL.

[: :] Ps. Andrew Grey coming to CHC KL!

[: :] Planning Choy Ling's big birthday party.

[: :] Singapore to see David & Rebekah's baby boy.

[: :] Private project.

God is awesome!

:)

2009-05-05T16:25:00.002+08:00

dear Dad,

This is very difficult. I don't know what to do or how to feel anymore. This road seems very bumpy and its causing me a lot of pain.

Why is it so difficult?

I don't want to over think things. I don't want to talk about it anymore. I want this to just go away. Straighten it for me Dad, I don't have the strength in me anymore.

I feel suffocated. I don't know what to do. Give me some direction. Any direction.

I don't understand why this is so difficult? Its very short lived. Or perhaps I just don't have enough faith? Why do I care so much about what other think or say? Why am I so shallow?

I need Your strength because I am not strong... I need You.

Your daughter,
me.

a jumble of emotions

2009-04-30T17:07:00.002+08:00

Feels good being home but I miss Medan.

Haven't been resting since I touched down. Been meeting up and catching with a lot of people. I love catching up.

I had hainam png, hainam chicken rice, awesome half boil eggs, steam bun, mien-fan, lemon tart, jap food, starbucks and chinese fried rice. Now I can't wait for Bakuteh! Did some shopping too. Life is good!

I miss Medan a lot too.

I've been having withdrawal syndrome. I kept looking at the pictures from Medan. I get text messages from Medan. I get updates rather often. I miss Medan very much.

This coming month will be very exciting!

Penang this weekend. JB next week. Beijing 14th - 21st May. Perth 22nd - 27th May. Camerons 30th - 31st.

Exciting~!

Be still my heart... be still...

home...

2009-04-28T14:52:00.000+08:00

I'm FINALLY home...

:)

goodbyes...

2009-04-25T15:52:00.001+08:00

I hate goodbyes. I absolutely suck at it.

bittersweet

2009-04-22T15:18:00.004+08:00

Its been 3 months since I came to Medan. How time flies.

I've experienced much joy and pain. I've laughed and cried. I've seen a lot, learned a lot, grew a lot and was tremendously stretched but God is good. I'm very thankful for His grace and mercies for me. Grateful.

My last week here in Medan is bittersweet. I'm really looking forward to go home and be home but at the same time, I'm sad to leave this place and the people behind.

I've bonded so much that I'm now part of the family. The sense of family here is very strong. Its hard to let go.

Saying goodbye is always difficult.

I wish things were different but it is not.

EXCITING!

2009-04-16T18:12:00.002+08:00

Preaching in Siantar tonight.

Going to Lake Toba tomorrow.

Preaching in Young Working Adult Ministry meeting on Saturday.

Preaching in Campus Camp on Sunday.

Life is exciting!!!

love hurts

2009-04-14T16:55:00.003+08:00

I now understand.

nostalgic

2009-04-08T00:14:00.003+08:00

CDs here in Medan is very cheap. Ridiculously cheap. RP30,000 - RP60,000 tops. That's like RM10 - RM20 per piece.

So anyways, my recent purchase - Planetshakers - Beautiful Saviour Acoustic Series Volume one.

Brought back many memories. Praise Him. Open Up The Gates. Reflector. How I Love You. Lift Up Your Eyes. Rain Down. Its All About Jesus. Beautiful Saviour.

I have actually stopped buying Planetshakers albums. Previously I was a hardcore follower and fan since HUGE Camp 2002. I bought CDs and went to many Planetshakers conferences. Than I stopped because I wanted something new. I wanted something fresh.

This CD has brought back very nostalgic memories. The experiences and the people that I've experienced it with.

Yuh Chien. Pam. Yin Har. Wei Ren. Vinny. May. Sanjeev. Sam. Julian. Jon. Carrie.

I miss all of you. I miss when things were much simpler. I miss waking up real early to drive to Penang and sing nothing else but [Reflector] I miss learning the songs and singing it in our youth camps. I miss attending the conferences together.

I miss [us].

blessed!

2009-04-02T18:53:00.002+08:00

I'll be heading to Beijing in May & Perth in June!

I have never traveled so much in such a short period of time until I resigned in August 2008. God has blessed me in ways beyond my imagination! In all my travels, I only paid for one. The rest are all being blessed by others.

I'm so excited about the upcoming trips! I've always wanted to go back to Perth since I left in Jan 2004. Its like a dream come true! Beijing, hopefully will see WeiRen and the great wall of course!

I am truly blessed!

"eventful"

2009-03-30T19:51:00.002+08:00

Last week has been very very "eventful".

Title - an almost DROWNED experience.

Went to Sungai Sayum with the Young Working Adult ministries and it was lovely. Trash everywhere, there was a baptism corner, laundry corner, fish washing corner, bath corner, pee corner... despite all that, it was still lovely!

There's this part of the sungai which is 5 meters deep. Now, I'm not a very good swimmer in the swimming pool but I thought, what the heck... I'll just try to brave the 5 meter deep of the sungai.

Bad mistake.

The current from the sungai pushed me from where I was swimming towards and I started to panic! Good thing one of the guys saw me being swept away to a different direction due to the strong dirty river, he rushed in and saved me!

Ahh... my hero!

Title - an almost DIED experience.

Was on the way back to the jungle [where I stay] from church [in the city]. If you do not remember, my only mode of transportation is a motorbike. A pick-up truck came and hit us. I was quite shocked but praise God, we didn't fall off our motorbike or seriously injured. The guy who drove me was hurt a little. His jacket tore and there were some damages on the motor.

He was very angry and started to chase the pick-up because the stupid guy didn't even stop. In fact, he just sped off! So my driver was so upset, he started to chase and race in the dark and dangerous road of the jungle. We went so far, about 40minutes off of where we were suppose to be.

We chase the pick-up right up to the mountain.

I was so scared. So close to so many accidents. The pick-up knew we were chasing but refused to stop. I was praying and speaking in tongues! I said my sinners prayer again and was telling God I'll see Him soon already. I honestly thought I was gonna die.

When the driver realized I was scared after a long chase, he stopped. He asked if I was okay... NO I WAS NOT!!!

But just very thankful that no one was hurt. Just damages on the motor.

I never ever want to relive that ever again. EVER!

Dear Daddy...

2009-03-24T18:56:00.004+08:00

Are You playing tricks on me? I think You are playing tricks on me. You are right? Are You?

Just when I have totally given up hope and ready to pack up and move on, You spring something like this on me.

Why can't it be in a different situation? Different circumstances? Seriously Daddy, what are You doing? Whats happening?

I'm so confused and scared.

Have You forgotten the promises that You have made to me?

Give me wisdom and guide me through to make the right decision.

Love You...

devotion

2009-03-20T14:52:00.002+08:00

Devotion [edited version] - Hillsong United

Verse 1
I've been running, trying to be one who sees
I've been working salvation out on my knees
There is nothing better than knowing
that we are redeemed
I'm believing, trusting in creative hands,
I am praying for our world to bow to Your plan
And this one thought is unmistakable:
I take up my cross and follow You Lord

Chorus
When You stand the tall trees and mountains bow
When You speak the fiercest of oceans is still
And I see the sinner seek devotion
The lost become chosen, and I fall to my knees

Verse 2
I'm forgiven; my Savior who did not deserve death
He was blameless and I was lost in shamefulness
I'm delivered, but it doesn't seem right
unless I keep my eyes focused on the savior who gave His life
In the middle of a world that denies it believes
It is breaking apart at the very seams
There is one thing to be alive for
And it's to take up my cross and follow You Lord

Bridge
I will take up my cross and follow Lord where You lead me
And I will take up my cross and follow wherever you go

a touch from home...

2009-03-20T13:32:00.002+08:00

Pastor Kevin has sent some amazing people to Medan for ministry and to encourage me.

Eunice & Lee Na for the Children Ministry, Wei Teing to paint the Kindergarten Building and Wen & Brian our TV crew to record the whole thing.

I feel so recharged and refreshed by their presence. They also brought some goodies for me from home like bak-kua & Adreana's portable DVD player. I am so blessed beyond words.

It was a short 5 days but I've grown to know and love them.

I love my Pastor. I love my church members. I love my church.

Can't wait to be back!

:)

dear Daddy,

2009-03-14T13:00:00.000+08:00

I'm confused...

I need clarity.
I need Your wisdom.
Take this troubled heart and lift my burden.
I need You to light my way.
I need You to show me Your way.
I want to please You and only You.
Teach me how to die to self so You can live in me.
Take over Lord.

You drive. I ride.

xoxo,
Your daughter.

rough

2009-03-05T16:41:00.002+08:00

So its been a few rough days.

I need ME time. I don't get any of those when I'm here. I'm not mobile. I have to depend on people to bring me around. Sitting by myself in Starbucks, sipping on a nice low fat grande latte, reading is a dream.

I leave home early to go to church. I'll be real busy all day in church. Night will be cell groups, leaders meeting, young working adult services and hanging banners by the streets til late. By the time I get back, its really really late. I usually crash right into bed.

And the day starts again, bright and early the very next day.

Realize there's a lot of very stupid people in the world. Its nothing new but its just been magnified.

Man of God who plans for big events with no money in the name of faith. Blind faith that is. 2 days before the event, everything changes because surprise... lousy planning and no money.

Urgh!

doggy

2009-03-03T18:35:00.001+08:00

I ate dog meat yesterday.

*sorry Pepper, Kiko & Beigy. I still love you*

home

2009-02-27T12:17:00.003+08:00

I miss home.

Feeling quite homesick.

I saw this place that sells Malaysian Ipoh Chicken Rice in Medan city. I want to go there soon. Anything that reminds me of home.

*urgh!*

weather

2009-02-25T12:10:00.003+08:00

The weather in Medan has been insane.

Extreme heat and the next minute, insane cold.

I've been in and out of headaches and catching on to a bad cough. Dust storm.

I wish the weather would just decide.

*blah*

happy birthday princess!

2009-02-18T17:03:00.003+08:00

I love you heaps & miss you tons!

Have a great PARTY tonight dearest!

BEHAVE!

small world

2009-02-18T16:58:00.003+08:00

Had lunch today with Ps. Nuah's high school friends - Elsa & Boydo. They are both running for the election here in Medan. Local celeb because their posters are everywhere in the city.

I also found out that Elsa used to study & work in Malaysia for 7 years. She used to attend ACTS CHURCH. It was nice to talk about people like Janet, Jess, Jay, Alex, Agnel, etc in Medan. She speaks like a Malaysian. Super cool. Will meet up with her again soon.

Its a small world after all.

ministry

2009-02-17T18:19:00.004+08:00

I’m overseeing the creative ministry. Its been fun so far. We had a Youth Valentine’s service and I directed the drama but it was written by one of the girls here.

The dance team is awesome! I really like their working attitude, their commitment towards each other and to the dance ministry, their determination and hard work. In terms of choreography I think they are really good but still can improve on the freestyle. Its been so long since I actually put all my dance background from ballet to tambourine to good use. Yes… tambourine…

I’m finding ways to improve and challenge them further. Hopefully they will be able to take up the challenge and push themselves to improve. So far I’m getting gigs for them in church and outside church.

The drama team however is a challenge. I need to work on their commitment and attitude.

I’ve been meeting some good friends from my previous visit and making new ones. I may not be living a very [comfortable] life here but I’m having a great time.

like royalty...

2009-02-12T12:46:00.003+08:00

Its a weird sense of familiarity coming back. I can't really explain it.

I've been asked to oversee the Creative Ministry here and mentor the Youth & Young Working Adults. I'm also overseeing all the girls in Harvest Medan. Its quite exciting. I will only be here for 3 months, so I'm working out a system so that everything can go on autopilot when I leave.

My room has experienced upgrading. I have an actual bed now. I no longer sleep on a flimsy floor mattress. Also, my toilet can flush! Yes... FLUSH! I feel like royalty... haha!

*I have excluded the picture of the toilet purely because its not a pretty sight.*

Medan Part 2

2009-02-08T15:46:00.000+08:00

Hello world,

I'm in Medan again.

:)

heartbroken

2009-01-31T15:56:00.003+08:00

Its really sad to see Pepper go.

I'm leaving to Medan on 7th Feb for 3 months. Jane will also be moving out, nearer to college. Pepper has been moved to JB with the rest of the family.

Its really heartbreaking to see her go. Even if its for a while.

I hope she's okay. I miss her already.

:(

pepper poochmister

2009-01-30T18:21:00.001+08:00

Pepper Poochmister. 1 year 3 months. Happy.

carebears

2009-01-24T13:50:00.002+08:00

Sometimes who you go watch chick flicks with matters. Went for a late night chick flick [Bride Wars] with the bears. Funny enough, KinSan and Jess is getting married on the same month - January 2010.

KinSan & Daniel's - 9th Jan 2010.
Jess & Alvin's - 30th Jan 2010.

Very similar to the storyline of Bride Wars. Hopefully no one breaks out in crazy orange tan and insane blue hair dancing with male strippers! Haha...

Anyways, we are all growing up. Our lives are moving towards change. KinSan & Jess are getting married. Janet just started her own business. Werns got UK, Jeremy and work ahead of her. I'm going to Medan and I have my Aussie application.

We're all moving. We're all growing up.

Truly love these girls with all my heart. Don't know where I'd be without them. So glad God has placed us together this chapter in our lives.

God is always on time

2009-01-20T19:31:00.002+08:00

My visa has been approved. My tickets have been purchased. I'm leaving for Medan on 2nd Feb for 3 months.

How am I feeling?

Excited and scared.

Don't get me wrong, I'm really looking forward to go back to Medan. I truly am excited. I'm also scared at the same time. Although I've been there before, I know people there now, but its just a tingling feeling.

I'm scared. 3 months is a long time.

While cleaning my room, I came across my prophecy book. A note book which I write down all the prophecies that have been spoken over my life.

This jumped out.

**********

Date: 28th December 2004
Place: Eagle Range, Shekinah Youth Camp
By: Ps. Matt Fielder

You have got a lot of confidence in you on the inside but its all wrapped up by doubt. Doubt ripped you off from what God wants you to do. God wants you to have His confidence. You can do anything you set your heart on. No more if only or what if.

Your word carry weight. People get influenced by the words that you say. You have strong leadership quality. Take in His confidence.

God wants the best for you. You will settle on plan B but God's plan A is much better. Don't settle for plan B. Don't settle.

God loves you the way you are. Don't compare yourself to anyone. There are expectations set on you but God loves you the way you are. You don't have to do anything to impress God.

**********

Those words were really what I needed. I hold on to His words and His promises to me. Those words were true 4 years ago and stills ring true today. He knew I needed those words. He is always on time.

:)

letting go...

2009-01-13T19:20:00.002+08:00

Dear Daddy,

I'm ready. I'm ready to let go.

Letting go of all the [why]s. Letting go of all the [could have]s and the [would have]s. I want to let them all go.

I'm so tired of holding on to it. You know that its really dragging me down with the extra weight that I don't need. Its very hard to let go Daddy but I know its the only way. I'm just too tired. I've been holding it too close.

I want to let go and let You have total control.

xoxo,
Your daughter...

bridesmaid

2009-01-09T18:28:00.000+08:00

Jessica has asked me to be her bridesmaid.

I'm honored.

:)

a list of randoms

2009-01-06T19:17:00.003+08:00

[: :] Want to get into the Word in 2009. NLT is very easy to read. Done with Genesis in 3 days. The Word of God rocks!

[: :] Started working with Starmaker just to kill time. Very happy to actually work again, even if its just for 3 weeks. I really missed working. Weird I know.

[: :] Going back to Medan after Chinese New Year for 3 months. Need to get my visa done by this week.

[: :] The poochmister is the cutest thing in my life.

[: :] Finally reinstalled text twist again on my phone. Accidentally wiped it out while I was in Medan. Its been a hard 3 months.

[: :] Watched 2 great movies - Australia & Ip Man. Highly recommended.

[: :] Very happy that Kareeann was back for Christmas. The usual people were together again until God only knows when.

[: :] Pastor Kevin has asked me to work on A&P for City Care after Medan. Still initial discussion.

[: :] Alvin proposed to Jessica. Happy for them.

[: :] I am so in love with Him.

and a happy new year...

2009-01-02T19:21:00.002+08:00

So it is. Another year has come and gone.

2008 had many ups and downs for me. Happiness and sadness. Many events and highlights. Most importantly, God claimed my life again in 2008.

I've been living in a lie for way too long; believing that I have missed God's calling in my life and that God was done with me. God crushed the lie that I was living in and knocked some truth into me. That He loves me and He is proud of me. I am still here today because He is not done with me. I still have a long race to run.

I'm so overwhelm by how much God loves me. As cliche as it may sound, but it brings be back to the cross. So humbled and grateful. God loves me. Knowing that means the world to me. That truth is enough for me. God loves me.

2008 was great but I believe 2009 will be greater! I'm excited to anticipate what God has installed for me.

Laugh more. Love more.

xoxo.

christmas

2008-12-25T15:19:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Jesus!

Happy Christmas everyone!

xoxo.

maid of honor

2008-12-22T16:29:00.003+08:00

KinSan has asked me to be her maid of honor.

I'm honored.

:)

Happy Birthday Princess...

family vacation

2008-12-17T22:28:00.005+08:00

Its been soooo long since the family went for a vacation together. Macau and Hong Kong was such an awesome trip. Absolutely magical!

: venetion : pork burger : tea : weather : red cabs : ferry : cotton on : mong kok : mtr : HK disneyland : fireworks : christmas : peak : egg tart : local char-chan-teng : ladies market : char siew : fishball : walking : queing :

I love spending time with the family. Trying at times but I loved it nonetheless.

Thankful that we got the chance to go together as a family.

grandma chong

2008-12-10T19:26:00.002+08:00

She's been discharged from IJN. She's too old for a heart surgery so the doctors advised to take in medication to strengthen her heart.

Please continue to keep her in prayers. She's the sole reason the family is together. She's the glue. Really...

today...

2008-12-08T19:16:00.002+08:00

I got news that grandma chong was admitted into the hospital for a heart attack. Dad called to inform me that she was gonna go anytime.

Due to being in the panic mode, I got into an accident.

Grandma has been transferred to IJN (Institute Jantung Negara) Hopefully we'll get better news.

Waiting for the family to come back from JB so we can go see grandma in IJN.

post-medan

2008-11-28T14:55:00.005+08:00

It was very hard to say goodbye. The different people who have graciously opened their lives and hearts to me. I am forever grateful.

Honestly until today, I cannot find the right words to describe my 6 weeks experience in Medan, Indonesia. No words seem to right fit how great God has been in my life. I am forever grateful. Standing in wonder and amazed by His glory.

I thank God for the 6 weeks because He has opened the doors for me to touch lives like I would not have imagined. As I touched their lives, they have touched mine in return. That's why it was so hard to say goodbye.

I am not qualified. Neither was I prepared. I understand that He has used me simply because I was available. I made myself available. I know there's nothing too special or extra about me. Not for my glory but for His. I fully understand that if it wasn't me, He would have used someone else.

That's why I'm so grateful. Forever grateful.

I know I wouldn't have been able to do the things that I did in Medan if not for His strength, wisdom and courage. As corny and cliche as this may sound, but I know that I'm just His instrument. His vessel.

Well, I have spoken to my parents about the possibilities of going back to Medan for a longer period of time. Perhaps 3 or 6 months. I've just had my discussion with Pastor Kevin as well. He has some concerns with some issues so he has written an email to the Pastor in Medan. Waiting for reply now...

As exciting as it sounds, I'm quite nervous. Really nervous in fact but I can rest assured that my life is in His hands.

I miss Medan.

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2008-11-17T15:07:00.000+08:00

I'm home...

Leaving to Singapore tomorrow...

I miss Medan

last week in Medan

2008-11-15T12:30:00.001+08:00

So time has passed by oh-so quickly. I've been here for 6 weeks already. Going home to KL on Monday.

I'm sad.

I'm very bad at saying goodbye. I hate goodbyes.

When I told the kids that I was leaving, it broke my heart. To see their faces and hear the things that they had to say, trying to make me stay... gosh... I wanted to run back to my room and hide!

The youth was worst! I've gotten to know them better and they have graciously opened their lives to me. A few of them sang sad breakup songs to me. Songs about leaving, being apart, sadness, etc. Sigh... my heart sank!

Everyone is very convinced that I will be coming back next year long term because when Pastor Kevin came the other day, he kinda told everyone that I was gonna be back. Haha... He's funny!

Sigh... I think I'm going to cry on Sunday. I need me some tissues...

my prayer...

2008-11-05T14:29:00.001+08:00

One Life, One Love
Words and music by Brendon Seetoh & KC Gan2007 City Harvest Church

Who am I, that You would know me from the start
Set me apart
Who am I, that You would place eternity
Into my heart

You have given to me more than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

One life, I lay at Your altar
One love, I have with You
Touch me again, fill me as You hold my outstretched hands
One word, You know I will follow
One heart, broken to You
Use me again, Your mercies follow me, for all my days

In Your presence, in Your power, Holy Spirit I surrender

medan updates

2008-11-01T12:51:00.011+08:00

Life in Medan
North Sumatra University Students

Day Trip - HOME!

EXCITING!

Life has been so awesome! Every step of the way has been an adventure! The youth here and I are connecting very well. I really enjoy speaking and just ministering to them. Its really a very rewarding feeling.

Also I'm loving the culture here. I'm learning heaps. Everyday I see something new and learn something different. Its so cool!

I was invited to preach in the North Sumatra University Christian Fellowship. That was really awesome. They were so desperate for the word of God and the discussion was not surface but in depth. Like a good bible study. I really like it.

My one day trip home was really great! Spent some time with Jane because she came to pick me up. I love you Jane! Lunch with Janet, Kysern and KinSan. Did some kiwi juice shopping and went to church to say a quick HI before heading back to the airport again.

Pastor has asked me to consider staying in Medan for a longer period of time. The church will pay me but I will be based in Medan. When I heard that, I had goosebumps! People in Medan had already asked me to stay longer but the first thing that came to my mind was [what am I going to do for money] As shallow as I am, honestly, that was the first thing that came to my mind.

Than there's the migration which is currently still in the application process. Whats going to happen to that? As much as I love it here in Medan, I really need to pray. Pray hard. I need His direction in my life. I don't want to settle for Plan B. I want Plan A.

When I came back to Medan, I was so happy to find my room CLEAN and with TOILET SEAT!!! Oh yeah babeh... TOILET SEAT!!! You don't understand... toilet seat in this country is a luxury. In the entire area, only my room has toilet seat! Its a BIG deal here... HUGE in fact! Ahhh... toilet seat!! hahahha...

God is awesome!

2008-10-29T19:41:00.003+08:00

Pastor Steven Goh from CHC Singapore was here last weekend. I've learned heaps from him.

In one of the healing crusade, I prayed for a deaf boy and he got healed! He can hear! Its so incredibly awesome! I saw lame man AND woman WALK! Growth just disappeared! God is sooo awesome!!! Healing crusade is so cool!

I was sick. Lausai and puking. Don't know what I ate wrong. I think that's the only time I truly missed home. CHC leaders all texted me. I feel very proud and encouraged by them. Truly lifted my spirit. Momsy called when I was sick but I didn't tell her cause I didn't want her to worry. Special note to my sisters: Please don't tell momsy. Thank you.

I will be flying back on Friday morning and out again by evening cause I need my passport stamped. Probably will not be able to meet up cause its just a short window. I do look forward to fresher air and better traffic condition! :)

More updates another time.

Love all.

medan updates

2008-10-19T15:39:00.000+08:00

I’m really enjoying Medan. The work here is very rewarding yet incredibly challenging at the same time. I’m truly overwhelmed.

The culture here is beautiful. I’m treated as part of the Pastor’s family. They have even asked me to adopt Pas. Johnny’s mom family name while I am in Indonesia because its their culture and in Indonesia, she’s my “mama”. So in Indonesia, I’m Diana Sinuhaji. I’ll be Diana Chong again when I get back to Malaysia.

I’m learning to speak simple and basic Karo (which is one of the tribe language, very common here – like Mandrin) I attended a Batak wedding (another tribe after Karo) My mode of transport is motorbike, I eat all the local food, I manage to watch 2 Indonesian movies, I went to put up banners with the church members here in the dark by the street, eating gigantic kerangs by the road side… Just living life and absorbing all the culture here. Amazingly beautiful!

The kids here are desperately seeking affection. Simple things like “high-5” and remembering their names makes them feel very special. They are also very affectionate. The children will run towards me to hold my hands. I didn’t want to pick them up because I know if I carried one child, the whole bunch of them will come running. So I have kids holding both my right and left hands and one holding my leg. Its just so overwhelming what simple things like that does to a child. Yes… kids actually do like me for some very odd reason.

Some of the elder girls (about 9 or 10) wanted me to teach them some English songs, so we were just sitting together because I just accompany them while waiting for their ride. When their ride came, they salam-ed with me and kiss me on the cheek. Gosh, so sweet right… *melt*

Pastor sent Eunice and Dini here for 4 days. They were here to assist in the children’s program (kindergarten, child care and children church) It was very good to see them. Am tremendously encouraged by their presence.

I’m doing very well. Don’t worry about me.

1st week in Medan

2008-10-13T19:13:00.004+08:00

Church - Bukit Doa The guest house that I'm staying in
Kids who calls me Miss English
Pas. Johnny and his wife, Pas. Tina
The kindergarten kids and I

Its been very rewarding most parts and challenging as well.

I wish i had more time to explain but I'll try to do so next time.

Love all.

bikes

2008-10-10T15:42:00.001+08:00

I rode on the motorbike for the first time in my entire life here in the busy streets of Medan.

Quite exciting!

:)

psst from Medan

2008-10-06T19:27:00.002+08:00

Hello world…

I’ve arrived to Medan, Indonesia safely this morning at 815am (Medan time) – 915am Malaysian. I’ve got some issues with my length of stay here. My church and I both didn’t realize that the maximum stay in Indonesia for Malaysian without visa is 30 days. My initial plan was to stay here for 6 weeks. The Youth Pastor (Ps. Nuah) is trying to help me find ways to extend it otherwise I’m down with 3 options:

1. Leave after 30 days and enter again to complete my 6 weeks.
2. Pay the daily penalty (which is RP 200,000 per day x 10 days) You do the math.
3. Cut my mission trip short and just leave after 30 days.

Best is if there’s a way to extend it without any cost or time wasted. Otherwise Ps. Kevin said just fly to Penang and fly back again. The Pastor’s brother (David) advised that I just pay the penalty because it saves on time and money. Just keep me in prayers ya.

I’m staying at the Guest House in the church area/compound. It’s a big piece of land where there’s a Child Care Center, Drug Rehab, the entire Pastor’s family staying here (with his father buried in the front garden) Btw, I think the Pastor’s dad (who passed away in 1995) is a true legend. He’s the pastor who lead the healing ministry and than one thing lead to another, they bought a land, minister to drug addicts and mentally ill patients. All his children are now working in the church and other ministry that he first started. Literally the entire family is working in the church, serving God together. Even those who is living in Singapore (David) but will travel back and forth because its their ministry. Its quite interesting.

The place is not fancy but after India, I think I can handle all things that comes my way (haha! Not really) I have a HUGE room to myself which is great! The surrounding area is like a big kampong. Its squat toilet, no toilet paper, no shower head, no hot water, no fan, no air conditioning but seriously its not that bad. I guess its because I kinda mentally prepared myself for the worst. Actually its raining season so its very windy and cooling. Taking the icy cold shower was insane but David’s wife asked me to lay hands and pray for the water so that God can warm it up for me (hahaha!!) She’s insane hilarious because she’s a Singaporean and here for holiday until Friday. So she’s giving me tons of survival tips before she leaves. Lovely lady.

Most of the people here speak Malay (or rather, Indonesian) so perhaps until Friday, I will not have proper English conversations anymore.

Real work starts tomorrow. I don’t really know whats planned for me yet but I think I will be working in the drug rehab and help out in the cell groups.

So far, as expected, food is an issue for me. Hopefully toilet will not be a problem (fingers crossed) but if so, I’ll need to go buy pills to help pang sai.

Let me get thru the week first. Than I’ll let you know the condition and see if you want to visit little ‘ol me in Medan (*HINT!!!*)

Please keep me in prayers ya.

I love Teh Botol!

missions

2008-10-04T13:35:00.000+08:00

I'm leaving to Medan, Indonesia on 6th Oct for 6 weeks.

Ps. Kevin had invited me to the CHC Leader's Retreat because he wanted the leaders to pray for me before I left. I was very thankful to be invited because I know that I'm going with my pastor and the church's prayers and blessings.

I learned heaps from Ps. Mike Connell's preaching as well. It was a breakthrough in my spirit.

To be perfectly honest, I was actually very scared about going to missions for 6 weeks. I have no training, haven't been serving in church like I used to and 6 weeks is a mighty long time but I made myself available - to contribute & serve in anyway I can.

I felt rather broken and confidence level quite low but the session with Ps. Mike Connell changed my spirit and the battle that was going on inside of me because I don't want to go with fear. I will not go in fear. I want to go with boldness and courage.

When Ps. Kevin prayed for me together with the leaders, I literally felt empowered with God's tangible presence. I'm the first from CHC to leave for mission for a long period of time. Pioneer. Instead of fear and nerves, it was replaced by God's strength and boldness. He is my tower of strength. The hope that I can rely on.

I'm excited.

Keith spoke a little to me about what he wants me to do in the church in Medan and we'll be sitting together again before I leave on Monday. I'm absolutely excited now.

Run to You - Hillsong

2008-09-29T00:40:00.003+08:00

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand, it comforts me
From the ends of the earth
To the depths of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory may you draw all men
As Your love and grace demands

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the Spirit of God
Yes, I will run the race
Till I see Your face
Oh, let me live in the glory of Your grace

jane

2008-09-26T12:22:00.000+08:00

Went to see FREE TO FALL live. My sister is a rock star! :)

Proud of you Jane...

xoxo.

(picture stolen from Adrian Yap)

addiction

2008-09-24T23:34:00.003+08:00

Yes. That's the latest addiction. Moonlight Resonance.

I managed to finish 40 episodes of good old TVB series in 4 days. Shocking I know but its very "chee-kek" so I just can't stop watching. Best thing is that I've been watching it on DVD and not trying to catch it episode by episode, day after day. I can just sit and watch for hours on end!

Was fun to be addicted to it with the family. All of us just sat there and watched the series together. We will have discussion after. Quite insane.

I haven't actually finish a whole TVB series in ages. I use to rush back from school everyday to catch TVB series on TV2 7pm monday-friday. Its a Chinese family thing. We Chinese love our TVB series.

missions

2008-09-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

Going to Medan, Indonesia for a 6 weeks mission trip. Details soon.

Please keep me in prayers. For His covering, strength and favor upon my life.

Thanks!

xoxo.

Australia

2008-09-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

Sydney

Canberra

Melbourne

The awesome friends [and one cousin]

9th - 15th September 2008

Sydney - Canberra - Melbourne

It was an awesome trip! The weather was incredibly awesome. The sun was shining but it was really cold. I love it. Beginning of spring.

Everything was familiar. It was so nice to see familiar faces too. Thanks to all the special people who met momsy and I during our very short stay in Australia. Hope to see you guys again soon!

I saw snow for the first time. Went up to Snowy Mountain - Perisher. Snow was thick but it wasn't snowing. Serious ski and snow boarders there. I was even intimidated by the serious kids who manage to build big snowman. Mine was a tad more humble. *haha*

I love pies. latte. boost. gelati. hot chocolate. utopian food. krispy kreme. strawberries. trems. stars. grass.

The main reason why momsy and I went to Australia was actually to see a "grand-aunt". I just refer her as "grand-aunt" because its less complicated. In actual fact, we're not even related. She used to be our neighbour when we stayed in KL.

At that time, she stayed with her granddaughter. My dad was away working in Africa, so it was momsy taking care of Jane and I. This "grand-aunt" apparently thought my momsy a lot of stuff and when momsy was sick, "grand-aunt" came over and took care of momsy, Jane and myself!

Her granddaughter & husband migrated to Canberra, so this "grand-aunt" became sort of homeless so we took her in. She lived with us for a couple of years when we moved to Klang. I have very little memory of this but apparently I used to be really naughty and argued with her all the time. Seems like I even cut her slippers because we had a fight and I wanted to get back at her. Don't judge me. That was before Christ. *haha*

She eventually moved to Canberra to be with her granddaughter. She got saved in the process which was incredibly awesome. She came back and visited us once before she fell sick. She had 3 strokes and can hardly speak or eat now.

When we saw her in the hospital, she couldn't recognise us. That was hard to take. To see someone so dear in that condition. Its as tho we're there to say goodbye because the doctors were giving up on her. In some ways, we were really there to say goodbye but... you know... I'm bad at goodbyes and death.

We're currently just waiting for bad news. Its really heartbreaking. Please keep her in prayer.

i miss...

2008-09-18T00:41:00.002+08:00

Jane.
Pepper & Beigy.
Working.
My bed.
My car.
Julian.
Mamak.
Watching movies.
Church.

India

2008-09-16T14:05:00.006+08:00

24th August - 1st September 2008

New Delhi - Agra - Mumbai - Goa

It was truly an experience. Neither good nor bad but it was quite an experience nonetheless. I don't really know how to put it all together so the following will be rather random.

Taj Mahal was truly magnificent! The story behind it, the history, the details... absolutely mind-blowing!

It was so good to see Vijesh again after 5 years. Truly it was 5 years too long. Shveta is amazing! She's got presence. Both their family are lovely and endearing.

I prefer Mumbai to New Delhi hands down.

Everything is either old or under construction.

Everyone honks for no reason at all. Its as tho they are announcing their arrival. The drivers there are incredibly skilled because they manage to fit [or rather squueeezzeee] 5 moving cars into a 2 lane road. Truly shocking... even for my standards!

We stuck out like sore thumbs in the sea of people. Everyone was just staring at us. Literally. Stared.

The wedding was colourful and filled with rituals. I didn't understand anything but there were some parts where Vijesh's family narrated so we knew a little. Everyone was very kind and accommodating. We were 3 Chinese girls trying to be Indian. We felt like being watched the whole time. Like penguins in the zoo. Some random people actually stopped us and took picture of us [like some superstar or like some circus animal, take your pick]

I'm not known for being the most adventurous person when it comes to food. I did struggle a little and seek for comfort food such as McDonalds.

I only managed to poop once the entire trip. Yes... I was full of poop and got real cranky! I was hoping to get food poisoning so that I can poop but no poisoned food for me, however I did come home with crazy lausai spells.

Met a bunch of very nice people in Mumbai who will go out of their way to help us and to make sure we are okay. Mumbai rocks! People are generally very nice.

The sleeper bus and sleeper train was truly an experience. Its literally bunks which you can sleep in. The bus wasn't all that bad but the train was insane. The space was limited. I can't seat up straight without hitting my head to the upper bunk. People stared at us the whole time. Thank God we upgraded but even then, our bunks were right next to the door which heads to the toilet. Imagine that.

The smell of spices were insane. Came a point where I couldn't differentiate if it was food or toilet because to a certain extend, they smell the same due to the spices.

I felt ripped off most the time because I was a tourist.

There were lotsa poverty around India and it was quite heartbreaking to see, especially when we stopped at the traffic light and a boy was trying to sell us flowers for 50 rupees and he said he needs it for chapati. That was hard to hear.

I have been called [madam] way too many times.

We took the local Mumbai train and it was insane FUN!

At the airport, there were a sea of crowd at the entrance and I was being bumped into like a zillion times. The line was hardly moving because of the crowd and I got so upset, I actually said [excuse me, can we keep the line moving] rather loudly and everyone just stopped and stared at me. Awkward.

The pictures are up and running on facebook. Most of them are from Janet's camera because she was the trigger happy one in the Chinese team.

At least one of us were! :)

australia

2008-09-08T22:31:00.001+08:00

Leaving to Australia tomorrow morning with mom for the big trip. Going to Sydney, Canberra, Melbourne and hopefully NZ.

Will catch up soon k.

Love.

new phase

2008-09-03T16:53:00.004+08:00

So I am unemployed.

No more normalcy of waking up early, rushing to work through the insane jam every morning. No more stressing out of deadlines, reports and meetings.

The journey has started. The winds of change are upon us. I'm stepping into this new phase and I am excited with a hint of fear.

Things are moving so quickly, I'm trying to slow down to just take time to absorb it.

I've just got back from my long anticipated trip to India.
I'll be busy with my cousin's wedding this weekend.
Packing for my big Aussie/NZ tour with momsy next week.
Been communicating with the Pastor in Palembang on the chances of me going over for missions.
In the midst of planning the trip to Jakarta International Jazz Festival (JAKJAZZ) upon the confirmation of the Palembang trip.
Trying to meet up with AAmelia on MRSC 2008.
Looking forward to the big family trip to Hong Kong.
A birthday party for Pepper (?)

The list of happenings so far for the next 3 months. See what I mean by excited but with a hint of fear? Its the fear of the unknown. Don't really know how I'm ever going to survive financially but I know God will provide.

All hang outs will need to be in cheapo place until I get paychecks.

Yes, the India post will come soon enough.

back from india!

2008-09-01T12:27:00.002+08:00

Finally back from India. Just got back a couple of hours ago and need time to rest and digest. Will update more soon.

Glad to be home.

:)

india!

2008-08-24T14:51:00.002+08:00

Finally the day has come! INDIA!

Will try to update when I get the chance to.

love & kisses.

missing mervyn...

2008-08-23T10:18:00.001+08:00

Its Mervyn's birthday today. His 28th.

He shares the same birthday as his mom - Aunty Grace and I just found out, his sister-in-law too - Wern Lu.

I miss you Merv & Happy Birthday!

xoxo.

last day

2008-08-22T22:23:00.003+08:00

Its my last day in this company and I'm working late. The entire day I've been working like a mad woman. Its as tho I'm coming back to office on Monday. When I was leaving Ogilvy, my last day was free and easy. Urgh! I really don't like the culture here.

The person who is suppose to replace me is a moron. He's been rubbing everyone the wrong way. Been giving me so much crap, my last day I gave him a piece of my mind. Haha... Not gonna go into details but its nasty! Not VERY nasty but you get the picture...

Just so glad I'm gonna be outta here! Very happy in fact.

After today, my life will really take on another path. The unemployment. The travels. I'm excited and scared at the same time.

In Your hands Daddy... in Your hands...

pre-india

2008-08-18T13:31:00.002+08:00

I'm so incredibly happy and excited about my trip.

I'm prepared. I have lausai pills, food poisoning pills, vomit pills, dehydration solution & panadols. I'll be getting my hepatitis jap. I'm as prepared as I can be. Praying the rest of the way :)

The trip is sort of being finalized. We're heading to Delhi. Shop. Going to Agra to see Taj Mahal. Shop. Flying to Mumbai. The big Bollywood wedding. Shop. A real Bollywood movie in Mumbai cinema. Shop. Train to Goa. Beach. Back to Mumbai before flying back home.

Now we're just in the midst of polishing the details and getting ready to fly away.

My last Monday in the company. Waiting to just get over with it.

emo boss

2008-08-15T15:30:00.003+08:00

The boss came back drunk after lunch. He called to see me first thing he came back. Sat me down and was all emotional about me leaving the company. Was quite entertaining and funny. I like him better drunk. Seriously.

He went on and on about how he's gonna miss me, the MD of the company likes me, he thinks he got jackpot when he met me at the interview, that he is and will always be there for me. He said that if I ever needed any recommendation letter, I can always call him, etc.

Its nice being appreciated. Even if its from a drunk person.

message from Joy to Pam

2008-08-08T14:11:00.001+08:00

Pam chose Bangkok over Encore. The consequences....

encore

2008-08-08T11:57:00.004+08:00

Remember this?

My only 2 resolution for 2008. Camp & Visa application.

Visa application status - in the process.

Camp status - completed.

It was awesome to see everyone again. There’s a sense of familiarity. A sense of belong. A sense of family. It’s a strong bond. I truly believed that everyone was there because God specifically hand-picked each and everyone to be there. I believe that it was an appointment. A date with God. Haha.

Pas.Steve & Joy McKinney came with Devin, Sassha & Anand. When we were brainstorming about ENCORE, we couldn't think of anyone else but to invite Pas.Steve to speak to us. He’s a very busy person and I felt like I was stalking him at one point but when he finally replied and gave me the dates that he is available, I was stoked.

In many ways, I feel like I’ve missed my calling. That I’ve done what I’m supposed to do and God cannot use me anymore. As silly as it seems, but it’s true. I believed in the lie that the enemy has told me and I was living in a lie.

I know that God the Father is proud of me. My Brother Jesus is proud of me and that I am cleansed. I am clean because of what He has done for me. As simple as it seems, it hit me like the first time I’ve heard it. Because of the lie I've been living in, I missed the most basic truth. God loves me.

God spoke to me thru Pas.Steve's sermon is so many ways. All gems. Judges 13 - Samson's life like I've never heard before. 2 Sam 16 - God never promotes you from good to better. He will only promote you when you are at the bottom because God is trying to bless you. Eze 16 - Grow up and be old enough for love. Is10 - His yoke.

Truly a camp that I will always hold close to my heart. I'm excited about whats ahead. The journey has just began. The real work starts now.

Thanks to all who help pitch in, believing in what I wanted to do, for attending and making it happen! Love you all.

psst fm singapore!

2008-07-30T17:39:00.003+08:00

On my break since 18th July. Its been really awesome.

I love sleeping in. Meeting up. Staying up late. Spending time with Pepper. I love it all.

ENCORE was... necessary. Give me some time to churn everything in. I'll give you details soon. Promise. God's really working. I can see His fingerprints all over it. I'm excited. Scared with goosebumps but excited.

In Singapore now. I think my mobile phone bill this month is going to be painful. This trip has been very relaxing. Not rushing to one place to another. I like it.

I'm at my friend [May & Frog]'s place since Monday. Heading to Chien's place tonight. Also meeting Alice for drinks. Going home tomorrow.

I love God.

india update

2008-07-16T10:34:00.000+08:00

Werns will be meeting Janet & I in India!

*happy*

alan & cindy

2008-07-11T14:15:00.003+08:00

A very good friend is getting married but the date clashes with the retreat. I can't go for the wedding. I tried to convince him to change the date of his wedding day but needless to say failed.

I'm really sad that I can't go because Alan's a very good friend of mine.

I was just thinking about him days before he called. I remembered him standing next to me, being there for me when I walked into the church where Mervyn & Micah's coffin were in. I remember having jelly-legs when I saw them in the coffins and he was there to hold me, be there for me. He's a very good friend.

I remember going shopping with him, to buy presents for Cindy. Gosh... they are getting married!

We don't meet as often anymore, heck nowadays we hardly see each other at all but he's one of those friends that I consider gem. Although we don't see each other, don't call each other, but he has a place in my heart. Gem.

Urgh! I'm just very sad that I can't attend his wedding.

:(

backlog

2008-07-09T17:10:00.003+08:00

Lots to catch up on. June’s been quite a month for me. The resignation. The stage production & musicals. The birthday celebrations. The retreat progression. The friends and family gatherings. I love it! Note: Below are just for my tracking.

The resignation.
I’ve told the boss I’m leaving. I have 2 last days. Weird I know. My 1st last day is 17th July where I’ll be going for my 2 weeks break. I come back early August for 3 weeks and will be officially leaving on 22nd August. I’m very happy about the decision. Excited that I’ll have free time to do MY stuff.

The stage production & musicals.
I manage to catch 1 stage production and 2 musicals in June. [how I learn to drive], [p.ramlee the musical] and [beauty and the beast] They were really good in different ways.
[::] Its been a while since I watched a stage production and I must say [how I learn to drive] was very well done. I didn’t realize our local talents with minimal stage setup could do so much in telling a story. Awesome!
[::] [p.ramlee the musical] we got really good seats. The stage was incredible and I so loved the costume. They managed to depict that era and the people so well. Everything brought back memories and lots of lost culture. P.Ramlee is such a legend. Really.
[::] [beauty and the beast] was incredible. My favorite Disney of all time. The sound was horrible but the production of it was good. The highlight was most probably when it was climax [where the beast turns into human] and there were technical difficulties. They had to stop for a good 5 minutes before it continues again, but it was worth the wait. The beast did some acrobat thingamajig and poof! HUMAN! Absolutely spectacular.

The birthday celebrations.
[::] A fun filled weekend with the carebears a week earlier and they surprised me with an awesome surprise. Sneaky little thing. One of the rare surprise birthdays which I was actually surprised *smiles*
[::] My homies tried to surprise me but their ally didn’t keep the secret well. Was so funny pretending to be surprised but it was awesome to see everyone in my house in hiding. Been so busy to meet them so it was nice to see everyone *hugs*
[::] I had to wake up at 4am, be in office by 5am to rush to JB for meeting at 9am, on my birthday! Sucks being me. Thank God the meeting was cut short, otherwise I would have been having dinner in the highway R&R. Thanks to homies again for meeting me at such short notice.
[::] PFM ex-colleagues embarrassed me in the round of british pool.
[::] Superstar drummer friend bought me the scrumptious ribs dinner.
[::] Ogilvy ex-colleagues made me hang out til late because they can.
[::] PFM girls-com team awesome catch up filled with very nice cupcakes.
[::] *Note: Two more birthday meet ups coming soon.

The retreat progression.
Everything is coming together. The team. The venue is set. The people are confirmed. I’m excited. Not going to be a big scaled thing. Cozy and intimate. Which is what I wanted anyways. I’m excited and expecting Him to move a mighty way.

The friends and family gatherings.
[::] Werns was back with Mr.Smitters.
[::] Love the family dinners and car rides.
[::] Swimming with the sister and momsy was fun.
[::] Visited my grandma twice in June.
[::] Simon dropped by for a quick visit.

Can't wait for my 2 weeks break.

pre-birthday bash

2008-06-24T15:34:00.002+08:00

The carebears surprised me with a pre-birthday bash.

Details coming soon!

superstar

2008-06-24T15:13:00.008+08:00

So I've been friends with K* aka Superstar for more than 10 years now. People have mistaken us for being a couple [and some accused me for being the reason for his failed relationship] *haha* We get that all the time. We're so numb already with those comments. Come on, give us something new.

I have K*-Fans aka Stalkers, getting close to me, using me to be closer to K*.

*sigh*

Being a friend of a superstar is not easy. Trust me.

So K* and I wanted to chill out, so we went to this place, and since its K*'s hang out, the waitress recognizes K*. She knows him by name and knows his [usual] order. As you can already tell, the relationship that K* and this person has is quite intense.

I was just standing next to K*, and she was very upfront about it, pointing at me, asking K* who am I to him and if we were a couple.

The shock and horror!

Its not the first time this has happened but its the first time I felt so intimidated. Like my life is endangered. Like she's going to sneeze into my coffee and put some poison into my coffee to [get-rid] of me! *haha* But in all honestly, with no exaggeration at all, she gave me the dirtiest look ever.

Seriously, lady... you don't need to do that!

Well, lets just say if I ever go there again, I'll pretend I don't know the superstar so that I don't get sneezed-in coffee.

:)

[*names have been changed to protect the superstar's identity]

randomness

2008-06-23T10:18:00.002+08:00

[: :] I dreamt I had a pet whale. Yes. Whale. I keep it behind my house in a water tank. Yes... a whale.

[: :] I had a hair cut. Shortest I've ever been in 12 years. Shocking, I know.

[: :] Bought a gigantic crate for pepper so that she doesn't hurt herself and I finally got her cert back. Pepper is from bloodline of champions *beam*

[: :] I have told my boss that I'll be leaving the company soon :)

naked & depressed

2008-06-20T11:14:00.005+08:00

The little one has serious skin condition so the vet has advised us to shave her hair off so that it allows the skin to heal. Right now, she is naked and in deep depression. The cone doesn't make things any easier for her. Its really sad to see her so restricted.

The skin problems are more visible now. The scars and blood. I feel so sad especially when I first saw her. She was being the manja little diva that she is but seriously... can tell that she's depressed.

Try shaving your hair off and be placed in a cone. See if you'll be depressed!

first love

2008-06-15T12:05:00.002+08:00

teach me how to fall in love with You again [and again and again...], my first love...

first love, my first love

my soul longs after You

first love, my first love

i want my heart to stay so true

because You first loved me

Jesus You will always be

You will always be

my first love.

cravingssss...

2008-06-13T12:42:00.002+08:00

Go watch Kung Fu Panda. You'll understand.

:)

present

2008-06-12T10:26:00.002+08:00

"Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift. That's why its called Present."
- Master Oogway.

I've been doing a lot of thinking, convincing and praying... I have peace now.

Work has been really stressing me out. My hands are shaky, I jump up at 3am or 4am thinking about work, I dream about work-issues, I wake up tired, I dread going to work, I get pre-monday depression, I'm physically and mentally tired.

We are all brought up thinking that working in a nice office is successful. Its not success when you are not happy. If you do what you do because its good money but hates the job itself, its crazy. A very wise person told me that life is too short and fragile to allow worth to overwhelm us. Its not worth it.

I agree.

Working in a cafe, bakery or even a pet store... does that make you any less successful? I don't think so. May not pay as much but I know I won't go to sleep thinking about work, stressed out.

Right now, while waiting for my visa approval, I want to spend my time wisely. Not being stressed over work. I want to stop to smell the roses. Take a walk in the park. Not rushing from one place to another.

Today is a gift.

:)

Dear Daddy,

2008-05-29T09:56:00.000+08:00

I'm tiptoeing, pushing myself forward to try to take a peek of what's ahead for me. What You have for me. Help me hold on to Your Word and Your Promises in my life. I don't know where I'd be without You.

The yoke is getting heavier by the day, Daddy. I need Your strength. Renew my strength everyday. Your joy is my strength.

The boss has done it again. I need Your direction in my life.

xoxo,
me.

sisters cookout & movie session

2008-05-25T23:59:00.001+08:00

Momsy's away for a well deserving holiday for 10 days. The sisters are all together. The house is noisy again.

We had a little cookout & movie session for bonding purposes. Any excuse to do things together and have a good time.

I made pasta & vegetable.
Jane made bacon.
An made a very fancy drink.
Vern made soup.

It was scrumptious! Good effort to everyone! *munch*munch*munch* and we were off to the movie. Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull. It was good for old time sake but I don't know... the end was really... [what the?]

It was awesome fun with the sisters. Love you all dearly.

*hugs*

vern

2008-05-22T12:06:00.004+08:00

Despite the pictures connoting that vern is a cry baby, she's not a BIG cry baby in the house... not all the time... but she has brought much JOY, FUN, LAUGHS and LOVE to the family.

I'm glad you are in the family vern...

Now you can stop bugging me about not having your picture on my blog!

hmm... I have a feeling the other sisters will want a post too... *evil thoughts*